Galaxian

I've been waitng for so long, but you never knew.

2011-02-07T19:20:00.005+08:00

I hate how I feel for you, I wish there was a delete button... I really want to tell you how I feel for you. But you may not understand, so I just keep everything to myself and hurt myself by thinking that I'd never have the chance to be with you. I really love you, and it hurts. Alot.

The rain has fallen on my window pane.

2011-02-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone out there, especially my loved ones! (Family, friends etc.) Well anyway, I think it's only a matter of time before I fall sick. I've caught a cold and flu and I'm having a slight headache. My throat hurts a little too. :( Headed to aunt's house with Mom and sister at 11am. While my dad told us that he'd catch up with us later. So we went without him. Collected ang pows and had steamboat. Played poker after that, I sat at the spot where my dad sat while playing poker yesterday. I figured out that that was a lucky spot since my dad won so much yesterday so I decided to sit at that spot and guess what ? I won a freaking 80++ dollars. :) F*YEAH.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.

2011-02-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year Eve to all chinese earthlings out there! :) Woke up at 6am in the morning today...feeling kinda sick because of the weather I guess. Have any of you noticed that it is raining really often this few days or week and it's really cold. Well, if you haven't noticed that then you should go take a brick and hit your head. LOL nah I'm just kidding. So I went to school, only 5 girls from my class came. Awesome or what. After the morning assembly, we were sent back to class to work on our class mascot, who was Jared. I didn't really helped, I went to 3/5 because they were watching High School Musical 1. LOL people from other classes sneaked in too. Lmfao. And btw, our class mascot gotten 4th. :)

Headed to Causeway Point for Seoul Garden after school with Alex, Benedict, Cheewee, Koksiang and Ernest. It costed $18+ per person. We reached at about 11am+ if I'm not mistaken. Eugene came and joined us afterwards and I was sorta happy to see him again. :) Oh yea, guess what? Eugene didn't paid for the buffett, hahah he just barged in. The staffs either thought he paid already or guessed that he went to the toilet or something and came back. Lukcy bastard, tsk.

We took the train and all went seperate ways except for Alex, Ernest and I. We headed to the lan shop nearby Alex's house. Played for 2 hours with Ernest while Alex played for an hour only cus he had to go back to Malaysia to celebrate CNY. :(

Rushed to aunt's house @ 5pm++ for Reunion Dinner and played poker too. My dad was winning like some mdsjfhdbgndhgbfd, lady luck was shinning on his side. I lost about $2 but soon gained back my loss and even made a profit of $10. God bless me! HAHAH. I betted $10.50 for that one round and I won. Hehehe.

Well yeah, a few more hours before CNY. Then I'll be able to collect ang pows. :3 Hopefully I'd win more money when playing poker tmrw and the day after. :P I'm also gonna visit my friends houses for extra ang pows. Mwahaha LOL oh yeah shake it baby.

Cross my heart, I hope you're mine.

2011-01-29T13:08:00.002+08:00

I've got so much things on my mind that I want to blog about but there are some things that I just can't. So I'm sorry for the lack of updates, I really tried to blog but everytime I type something, I'd backspace it and log out. I find it harder to express what I feel now.

Stuck in dilemma.

2011-01-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

Went to Buit Timah's lan with Alex, Shaolun and Ernest. Met Chenwei and his friends there too and played blackshot. :) Shaolun left at 4pm+ while we left at 5pm++. Had dinner with Alex and Ernest at a small shop that sells chicken rice and other stuffs. Ordered chicken rice and fried rice. Bought bubble tea afterwards and we took 173 to cityvibe for Alex's takoyaki. Boarded bus 99 and alighted at Alex's stop and changed to bus 187 while Ernest took 157 to Jurong Point to meet his mother. Had a fun time today. :D Oh and btw, I'm very very tired. Has been sleeping during lessons this two days. :X

Figure out a happy ending.

2011-01-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 8am yesterday and played blackshot till 3pm+ before I went and prepare and set off to church with my parents, sister and uncle. The church service ended at 6.30pm and we went to vivo after that for dinner and also to get a new SIM card cus mine isn't working anymore. Walked around after eating and went back home. Recieved a call from Alex and met him and Ernest at Jurong MRT station @ 10pm+ and we headed to Colossus @ Paya Lebar. :) We played from 12m/n all the way till 10am in the morning today. :) Alex and Ernest came over my house after that and we slept till 7pm+.
Tmrw's Monday already, I'm really reluctant to go to school srsly. I have not done any of my homework yet. I don't know what's wrong with me. :( Going to watch a movie tmrw with Alex, Cheewee and co. :) Alright I'll stop here, bye.

So I chose to remain silent instead.

2011-01-13T16:46:00.003+08:00

Exactly. School was fine, I'm going for recreational volleyball on every Wednesday so I think I'm fine with it since there's only 1 training day per week for recreational volleyballers and Yingkai, Minjie, Stacey, Jiali are going too. :) After school, spend 15mins walking from school to home alone. Have been using the laptop ever since. I'mma shut down my laptop at 6pm and bathe before I start doing my homework. But to be honest, I don't have the mood to do homeworks. T_T I'm lazy.....urgh. And I don't even know wtf the chemistry and physcis teacher are teaching about. LOL Mr Ras didn't even taught us anything and gave us worksheets, homeworks and even a project already. He asks us to find informations in the textbook ourselves. -_-

Well anyway, it's Friday tomorrow. :) And a week is almost over, it's really tiring having to wake up so early in the morning everyday for 5 days. Oh and did I ever mentioned I hate doing english homework ? Yes, I hate doing english homeworks. Finding the meaning of the words from the dictionary and finding the synonyms blah blah blah oh come on. :( I know it's good for us but I don't have the do-homework-mood. I guess I'll go to school tmr and copy from any of my classmates. *CROSS FINGERS* I hope Ms Goh isn't reading this LOL.

Somewhere we went wrong and you won't sing along.

2011-01-12T16:16:00.002+08:00

Maybe you don't understand how I feel but it's alright. Perhaps I left a bad impression on you already and that's why you prefer to hang out with others than me. So I guess that whatever I do to salvage it would be futile. I've come to terms with the facts that you weren't the person I knew a few months back. I don't know what happened, maybe something somewhere went wrong. But whatever the reason was, I would like to say I'm sorry.

School was fine, I think I'm beginning to like maths. And damn it cus I have to go back to volleyball. I don't know why Mdm Fun wants to call my mother, like wtf ? I'm really tired so I can't think of anymore to blog about. It's raining heavily a moment ago and suddenly it became a drizzle o_o Brrrrr it's so cold.

So maybe it's true that I can't live without you.

2011-01-11T17:36:00.003+08:00

You're the girl I would want to spend my entire life with, I love you so much ♥

I'm still trying to figure out what I really want to achieve in my life cus I'm not really focused in my studies. I don't do homeworks and I often don't pay attention in class. So...I'm thinking, what would I want to do in my life, to get things sorted out. Things can't keep going on this way, I'm living a life without a goal. It's kinda like, what's the purpose of life if you don't have a goal right ?

Well anyway, school was fine today. It's like any other day, seriously. Oh and btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGKAI. :D You bitch, you're 15 already stop being so childish and to be honest, your high-pitched voice are raping my ears ! Urgh LOL. HAHAHA anyway stay bubbly always! :) Cheewee, Alvin and Ernest came over my house after school to sorta like chill ? Ernest was hogging my laptop, on skype and blackshot. And this 2 joker, Cheewee and Alvin actually attempted to rape me. They grabbed my arms and tried to unzip my pants LOL. Ernest didn't helped me, instead he helped them to grab me. But it was a failed attempt, HA LOSERS SUCK IT ! :P They left my house at around 4pm+, god I'm officially broke. Fuck it. Nevermind, Alex *wink* HEHEHE. Put that aside, I'm most probably gonna get a broadband tmr with my cousin and aunt. :) Hooray!

I'LL TRY TO BLOG EVERYDAY ALRIGHT SO STAY TUNE. LOVE YOU ALL ;)

I don't know what I want anymore.

2011-01-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

Had en enjoyable weekend with my brother, Alex Ewe. ;) Friday, headed to bukit timah for lan with bro and ernest till 11pm while Ernest played till 6pm. Alex stayed-over my house and we slept till noon the next day (Saturday). Went to city vibe's lan till' 6pm+ and went back my house for dinner before going to aloha lan @ 10pm. Played till 3am in the morning and went back home. Alex fell asleep on the sofa while watching tv. Woke up at 11am+ while Alex woke up at around 12pm+. Had lunch at home before going to city vibe's lan. Played from 2pm till 6pm and took 189 home. Passed Alex his laptop and accompanied him to wait for his bus to arrive. Weekend's over, I'm lazy to go to school but I've no choice. :(

And before I knew it I was falling fast.

2011-01-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

Slept at about 9.30pm yesterday and woke up at 6am today but I was still feeling tired. The bed was looking so sexy, I really had the urge to go back to sleep but oh well, it's only the 2nd day of school! But I have to admit, today was much better than yesterday because I cracked jokes with Yixin. LOL went to Bukit Timah for lan with Alex, Eugene, WengMeng and Ernest after school. Left the lan at 5pm and headed to this stall that sells chicken rice etc. Ate there and went to Mac Donald to slack for a short while before we went to the bustop. Took 157 with Alex, WengMeng and Ernest and accompanied Alex to have his haircut. Cabbed home after that with Alex and went to bath as soon as I got home. I'm really very tired now, don't know why I'm feeling so tired when it's only 8.30pm. Don't know what else to blog about so that's all for now. :) Nights everyone.

It took you long for you to realize.

2011-01-04T20:32:00.002+08:00

Sheesh, it's the first day of school today and I'm really tired right now so I'mma sleep as soon as I'm done with this. Woke up at 6am earlier in the morning today and had my shower and breakfast before I left for school. My hair got caught by Mr Loh and I look like some dumb ass now. FML my form teacher, Ms Goh gave me a chance to retify my hair by today but Mr Loh was so cold hearted to catch me for my hair and send me to the fucking barber. The barber only spend like 2mins on my hair so you could imagine how screwed my hair is now. Lessons were fine for the first day of school. :) Cabbed down to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre with Alex, Cheewee, Alvin and Ernest for lan @ 3pm and left at 6pm. Took 157 and went to Westmall for bubbletea and Burger King with Alvin. Reached home at about 7pm+ and went to took a shower. Well I hope this year would be a better year and wish everyone of you out there all the best for your studies and in everything you do! :)

You don't know what's it like to be like me.

2010-12-31T10:15:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you just sit at home and remember the old times. You laugh by yourself with a ridiculous smile. Then you have that one tear stream down your face, because all of it changed.
You were the person I thought who would never abandon me, the person I thought who would always be there for me. You were the person I thought who would never lie to me. Why did you? You really got me going, my heart sank. No words could explain how I felt...but I know, I know it's okay for you. Don't I matter ?

It's the last day of 2010, hope next year would be a better year for everyone. I'm going out with Alex, Cheewee and Alvin today. Sorry for the lack of updates, I will blog soon.

You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

Love me for a reason, let the reason be love.

2010-12-24T05:25:00.010+08:00

Hello aliens. :) Nah, just kidding. Didn't post yesterday because as usual, I cooped myself up at home. No wait, I didn't cooped myself up...no one asked me out that's why. LOL saddening right! Well anyway, I'm posting today because it's Christmas Eve ! :D How many of you are excited ? Actually it doesn't feels like Christmas Eve to me, I don't know why either. Maybe because there's no snow ? Lmao. Well but I'm still excited because my cousin said whoever can drink the most cans of coke/beer gets $50 from him. My sister and I have to drink as many cans of coke while my cousin has to drink as many cans of beer. :3 Hahah obviously he would lose right? Hooray! I'm kinda hungry now and I also feel like getting Starbucks' Caramel! Anyone ? :) It's Christmas Eve today and I'm not gonna spend my day at home in front of the laptop, no way. So I'll check to see who's free so that we can chill, know what I'm saying ? Yeah...hahaha. Everyone in the house is sound asleep except me. Guess cus' I slept the earliest yesterday which was around 11pm. I woke up 2 hours ago fyi. I can't wait to celebrate Christmas I think, having dinner with my whole family so all's good for me. :) Oh anyway, did you guys saw google's homepage ? :) It's nice, click HERE to check it out ;) Alright, I'mma post again tmrw and hopefully upload some photos. So long suckers readers ! :3

I have a dream, a song to sing.

2010-12-22T00:28:00.005+08:00

I remembered I wanted to be an astronaut last time because the outer space just amazes me and the floating around sounds so cool. It looks really awesome with all the stars in space! I love to stargaze because I would feel so relaxed. But sadly, Singapore is an urban city so there isn't much stars to gaze at. T_T Well I don't want to become an astronaut already since NASA provides services to bring us to the outer space, like a tour. Provided you're rich enough to pay for that! I heard it's kinda expensive though. And being an astronaut ain't that easy plus it's tough work too! Talking about astronauts, I suddenly feel like buying astronaut's ice cream. :D The other time when Juliana and I went to buy it, the shop was already closed -_-

So yeah, hmmm I wanted to travel all around the world since young. Traveling sounds so adventurous and fun, don't you think so too ? :) Same thing, provided if you have the money! Conclusion, study hard, find a good job, earn lotsa money and you'll be able to do and buy the things you like! Oh and you'll be able to take care of your parents. :3 Money isn't everything though, since it can't buy happiness and yeah...you get my meaning right ? :)

Cus I've got swagger.

2010-12-21T20:52:00.004+08:00

I don't know what to post because I've been at home the whole day. I'm bored and the internet connection is being a bitch like any other day! Woooo, it's raining now. :) I really want to play around in the rain. I don't know what else to say to make this post longer and exciting already. /:

I'm so sorry! I'll post again soon alright so stay tune. ;)

You and Me together through the days and nights.

2010-12-20T20:27:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 3:30pm in the afternoon by Alex's spam calls. LOL used the laptop for a little while and went to bathe and prepared. Reached westmall at about 4:30pm and bought 2 movie tickets for Skyline at 5pm since Alex have not reached yet, movie tickets were $6 btw. Alex reached at about 4:50pm and we went in to the theatre. The show lasted for 1.5 hours, I'd say it wasn't that bad though. Compared to Haunted Changi, The Hole, King Of Fighters which sucks BIG time.

Headed for dinner at Koufu and bought 2 sabah fish set meal with chickens and an extra bowl of rice at the korean food stall. :) Then, decided to go to the arcade. Top-up $14 to the timezone card i think. Went home after playing. Yeah I sure had fun but im sooooooo tired ! D: I have puffy eyes you know ?!?! ;_; School's starting in 2 weeks time, who's excited ? I'm not. But, I've decided that I won't slack like how I did in Sec 2 ! When i was in Sec 2, I don't do much revisions and I wasn't really committed to my studies. So I've decided that when I'm in Sec 3 I'mma study hard and play hard at the same time. As the saying goes, 'All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy'. ;) LOL. Well not forgetting Christmas, which is in 5 more days ! This the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la. I hope it'll snow in Singapore on christmas although it's highly impossible but who cares, I have a great imagination. :D

Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown ?

2010-12-20T01:55:00.002+08:00

Northern lights, isn't it cool. Nature's beautiful and awesome, so for those who doesn't appreciate mother nature....well you can jolly well go and die. LOL nah I'm just joking ! I'm not that mean and besides, everyone is entitled to their own opinion so yeah. I really wanna see the northern lights so badly though. /:

Yesterday, went to IMM with Juliana and met Yingning and Arynna to celebrate Yingning's birthday. Had our dinner at Secret Recipe and ordered a sliced cake for Yingning but the 4 of us shared the cake. :) Hope Yingning liked it. Cab to Ion with Yingning after that to exchange her Armani Exchange wallet for something else because Yingning's boyfriend bought her the same wallet as Yingning bought. If I'm not mistaken, the wallet cost $96. Went to basemet with Yingning after that for supper and took a bus home. Meeting Alex later at 3pm. I'm kinda tired so I'm gonna sleep soon. :) School's starting in 2 weeks time. Sigh, I think I should go through all my textbooks before school starts so I can understand what the teacher's teaching and not be like 'what the fuck is this teacher talking about'. I'm such a good kid ain't I ? Say yes or I'll kill you. Wtf, okay that's lame. -_-

Wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn.

2010-12-18T00:04:00.003+08:00

How is everyone out there, hope you all are doing fine. I'm alright, still living. (:

Maybe going to UK isn't a bad thing afterall.... I can forget about the things that

made me sad and to start afresh. I wish i could go now, i don't want to wait for

a few more years. Sorry that I'm not really active anymore. Do drop a tag tho.

Cuz I'll be making papers like you wouldn't believe.

2010-12-15T03:49:00.010+08:00

I'm so awesome even HE^ is afraid of me. LOL nah I'm just being lame. I've created tumblr and have been tumblr-ing (if there ever was this word) for hours till now. Do visit my T U M B L E R and follow me if you have a tumblr ! :D I'll definately follow you too. Actually i've created tumblr a few months ago but i didn't do anything with it until now. For those who does not have tumblr, well i reccomend you to create a tumblr. It's awesome, really. Try it ! *gives the innocent face*

Well anway, in a couple of ~~weeks~~ years time…I’d most probably be going to UK to study. On one hand, I’m very happy but on the other hand, I’m sad because if I’m going UK to study, it would means that I’ll be leaving all my friends behind to a foreign country :( I’ll definately miss all my friends, especially my brother, my besties and Jiawei. Oh, which reminds me ! I asked Jiawei whether she would want to go with me to UK to study and she said see how, though maybe most probably i guess that she would not be going with me to the UK to study I still have that little hope in me that maybe, just maybe her parents would allow her to go study in the UK. That’d be so fucking awesome. Not forgetting my brother too, it’d be great too if he can study with me in the UK. Jeez, I’ve told Ernest about my mum’s plan to bring me to the UK to study and he was like “Can you not go ?” I honestly did not expect him to say that, really ! Aw, I’m touched. ;) LOL. I wonder how is it like studying in the UK ;_; Oh btw, I'm mad hungry now. My stomach keeps on growling, poor tummy. Hang in there, i love you xx

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight ♥

2010-12-14T19:43:00.003+08:00

Sorry i haven't been posting for like a couple of days already, nothing much

was happening in my life so i had nothing to post about so yeah. Went out w

alex at 7pm+ yesterday at cityvibe, bought tako and played lan for 2 hrs. :)

I didn't played blackshot, i was just on youtube listening to Cher's audition

and One Direction's too. :) They're both awesome ttm. Did i mentioned that

i really love to sing ? :D I do. It makes me happy ! Went to bought KOI

after lan and went home. Thanks brother, for helping me pay. :P Hm, im

kinda excited because i might go UK to study in a few years time. Weee,

my mom just told me. She said she'll call my auntie in the UK and ask her

to check for schools. Yeah but first, i gotta study hard here right ? Right.

LOL did i just talked to myself ? Oh well. /: I'mma go jogging with YN @

9pm later on. (YN=YINGNING. ) Eating subway's double meat now,

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. It's awesome, y'all should go try it some day. :)

Ciao for now ;)

You can't tell me nothing.

2010-12-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

It isn't fair how i always keep to my promises when you keep breaking yours

time after time.You're selfish, you only think about yourself. What about me,

have you ever considered how i would feel ? I really tried, guess im done alr.

Spend the whole day at home using the laptop. What to do ? Someone bomb

me. I'm going for my work tmrw @ 9am not looking forward to it. Short post

today, so sorry. I've got no mood to post, my blood is boiling nbccb _|_

If you be hating just be mad at yourself.

2010-12-10T23:44:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 10am+ today, walked to nanhua bustop with arynna and accompanied

her to wait for 188. I went home after that and had my one hour nap. (: Shiokk.

Woke up 4pm, bathed and prepared and trained to lot 1 to meet arynna and ryan.

Walked around, ate at mos burger and yuanlong joined us too. Continued walking

around and then we slacked outside mac. We decided to go to the toilet and thats

when arynna got angry with us (i guess) and she went home. T_T We spam called

her, combed the place but to no avail so ryan and i decided to go to her house to

apologize but she wouldn't come out of her house. Marc was with us too and he

was the one who called arynna. I think arynna guessed that he was together with

ryan and i so she didn't want to come out. Oh well, SORRY ARYNNA LEE. We

didn't mean it, really. Went home afterwards and reached home at 11pm+. The

fact that we went all the way from lot 1 to your house to apologize means we're

very sincere about it ! Please be touched. Kinda tired and im meeting alex tmr,

hope he rmbrs though if not i'll kill him, crush him, burn him, eat him. -_-

Why don't you go fuck yourself and die bitch.

2010-12-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

So if someone right now doesn't give a fuck about you, let it be. There'll

eventually be people who will care for you and give you all the love you

need. Each and everyone of you is beautiful in your own way so you do

not have to try so hard to please people. You live life for yourself, you

don't live for the sake of others. Live for yourself because when you are

sad, people does not care so might as well just be happy and don't think

so much. If people don't know how to treat you right, let go of them.

You must remember that you deserve more than all this shit you're

going through. Sometimes, i really wanna kick and punch those people

that doesn't give a damn but oh well, i wouldn't want to dirty my hands.

Woke up at 10am+ today and met Juliana at cityvibe @ 1:30pm.

Headed for KOI and bought ice-cream milk tea and passion fruit tea.

Waited for like 45minutes, ah so longggg. Bought takoyaki while

waiting too, yumz. Then went to mac and slacked, Shuhui came at

3:10pm. Headed to a playground nearby and chatted for awhile

before we took 154 to Juliana's house. Then, sharlene reached jul's

house at around 5pm and we decided to have our dinner at KFC.

Arynna came and joined us too. After that, jul+shuhui+sharlene

went back to jul's house while i walked around central with arynna.

Bought my black shoes cuz im gonna work at mac soon too, hehe.

I'm at arynna's house now, she's gonna work tmrw and i'll be

working on sunday. FML lol ahhhh karma sia, dang. T______T

2010-12-09T10:30:00.002+08:00

You used to be my best friend. You’ll try to keep it that way. But I won’t, not

anymore. I tried too hard to salvage our friendship, even when you were the

one that neglected it. Now that I’m the one letting go, it hurts me too see that

our friendship means so little to you now, but you’re selfish enough that you’ll

pretend everything’s normal. I feel as though I don't know you.

Not all scars show and not all wounds heal.

2010-12-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

I have so much to say but remembring that you didn't give a fuck about

anything i say, i just kept it this short. You don't understand, didn't even

ask why and you started scolding me. Call yourself a brother indeed.

It was awesome but we lost it.

2010-12-08T19:58:00.003+08:00

I'm finally back home and right now, i'm trying my best not to close my eyes.

Slept at 2am+ and woke up at 9am in the morning. Took a shower and double

check whether i've left out on anything. Met stacey, benedict, jasmine & jiali.c

at jurong mrt station and headed to harbour front. Then we took the bus to

sentosa and walked to siloso beach. We only played volleyball for like a few

minutes and we decided to have a dip in the shallow end. I don't know about

the rest but i sure had fun, it was damn hilarious when we started throwing

sand and each other. When i tried to dogde the sand that jiali threw, the sand

hit my arse. LOL, hahah funny max. Went to took a shower at about 3pm+

and went for steamboat buffet @ vivo. Love the steamboat buffet, had fun

eating and laughing too. The total price per person was $17.90 and we left at

7.30pm. Went down to Level 1 and bought chocolate from awfullychocolate.

Well we all bought the same thing, and the 4 of them decided to give it to

their parents. Filial sia, hahaha. :) Jasmine took the train home, I took 166

and bendict, jiali and stacey took 188 home. IM TIRED TO THE MAXXX.

We'll build this on a solid ground.

2010-12-07T19:42:00.005+08:00

I actually spend the whole day using the laptop, surfing the net. Wtf, no life.

LOL well but there was nothing else left for me to do, watching the tv sucks.

Singapore channels are kinda boring. But, i am gonna say no to being a no

lifer tmr ! Because i am going sentosa with Stacey, Benedict, Jasmine and

Jiali.C for volleyball. Been a long time since i've last touched a volleyball, so

i can't wait for tml, gotta reach jurong mrt by 11:10am, according to stacey.

#When i grow up, i wanna travel all around the world with you. ♥

Doesn't it sucks ? When you're sad being without someone and yet they're

doing perfectly fine without you. Nevermind, i don't wanna be so emo alr.

People change and stuffs yeah i know. I got over it already, hah! Fuck you.

The sun rays covered in grey.

2010-12-07T09:21:00.004+08:00

I'm sincerely sorry for not posting yesterday, i was too sick and sleepy to do

anything. I'm not sick already but i'm still having sore throat and it's effing' pain

man D: Yesterday, spend the afternoon watching movie with Ernest and went

to tradehub to meet Jiawei and Yixin. Then went home and played cards with

sister, ernest, aaron and daphne. We even played blindmice, hahaha but i kinda

suck at playing blindmice cuz i'll keep laughing looking at how the blindmice tries

so hard to catch anyone. LOL then headed to the badminton court and played

badminton @ 6pm+. Went home at 8pm+ with ernest and sist, had my dinner

and went to sleep. (: Ernest went to the lan at paya lebar after dinner and is

gonna play till later 5pm, i think he's sucha douche -_-

Jump then headfirst fearless.

2010-12-05T18:31:00.002+08:00

FML i'm sickkkkk. D: Guess the culprits were the chocolates i had yesterday

and the weather ! Screw you both LOL. Went to cineleisure with Arynna ytd

and we bought our bags at newurbanmale. The bag costs like $100+ wtffffff.

Had lunch at wisma and trained to lot 1 with Arynna to meet her friends .__.

I found out Reirey was actually Marc, fark you ! HAHAH kinda embaressed.

Cheyyy, i'll get my sweet revenge though. So let's list down arynna's friends.

Those that we went out with at lot 1: Marc, Ryan, Bryan, Sherman, Weaven

and Clayton. They had their dinner at KFC while Arynna and I headed to the

arcade to play PIU. Been a long time since we both played that tgt alr. Aww.

After that Arynna's friend came to find us and we literally slacked for 2hr+.

Bus with Arynna, Marc and Bryan and went to Arynna's house. (Bryan went

home.) Marc left at 1am and then i went to sleep. Woke up at 12pm+ and

was sick alr. Marc came at 1pm+ and left at 4pm+, i left awhile after he left

since Arynna wanted to sleep.

Just so you know, i've never stopped loving you. You mean the world to me.

Can't believe that i was fooled again.

2010-12-04T10:09:00.006+08:00

HAHAHAH LOL. I slept 8:50pm yesterday, had another interesting dream.

But i kinda forget what it was about, happens most of the time. -_- Oh well.

It's raining now and it's damn windy and cold, i love it. I really wanna play in

the rain, anyone care to join ? :) I don't know if im still going Thailand again.

But i might want to go since Arynan and Yingning want to tag along too ! I'm

gonna call to ask my mom later. I'm kinda bored so im listening to musics. :)

Guess im meeting Alex later at about 12pm to pass him his food and should

be going home after that or going to clementi central for KOI with yingning.

OH FUCK. I suddenly remembered....i don't think i can go thailand. :( FML..

Because im working soon ? Oh no........wtf. And wonder when the manager's

gonna call me. /: Nevermind. I might post again later so stay tunezzzzzzzzz.

Flooded with all the pain, knowing that i'll never hold you.

I've wasted so many words on you.

2010-12-03T20:25:00.005+08:00

Man am i tired right now, feels like sleeping already ! /: Yesterday, went out

with Juliana, Shuhui and Sharlene to Clementi Central at 3pm+. Bought KOI

and went to mac donald to slack since it was raining. Then we decided to go

try out the Mac at IMM to apply for a job. So yeah, we've got the job already.

Just have to wait for the call to confirm with us which mac we are gonna

work at. Met junyang and went back home together. Left the house @ 8pm

and met Don at my void deck. Took cab to boonlay market, had dinner and

went to the lan. Played till 5:30am in the morning and cabbed to my house.

Don asked me to cook maggie for him, end up when i finished cooking the

maggie for him, he fell asleep. T__T oh well, so i ate it myself instead. LOL.

Junyang was the last to sleep. And btw, i had a really weird dream but i

cant really remember what it was about. I woke up at 1pm+, the two were

still sleeping. Don woke up at....5pm+ ? Hah. They left my house at 6pm+

and i accompanied Don to the mrt station. Guess im staying at home tmrw.

Sad life. :( IM REALLT TIRED TTM NOW BTW. YAWN.*

If one day i stopped contacting you, will you take the initiative to contact me?

You used to mean alot to me but you didn't care.

2010-12-02T05:56:00.003+08:00

Good morning readers, it's 6am in the morning now. (: I was awake at about

4am+ because i slept at 8pm yesterday. And yeah, i went for a haircut ytd...

Not bad i guess, i feel much lighter now that i went for a haircut. HAHAHA.

Christmas is coming...wonder what my mum's gonna get for me ! :D Idw go

back to school man, so tiring. :( Oh well.....no choice. I haven't bought my sch

books and uniform for next year. *PANICS* LOL and yeah, im super bored.

Think i'mma ask guoqiang out soon. (: YAY. Sigh...........i feel sad and i don't

even know why. Wtf is this man. Nevermind /: FML.

2010-12-01T15:39:00.005+08:00

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up, now they're gone

and you wished you could give them everything. (N)

I am so emo at home, can't stop thinking about the past. Which makes

me really really sad. :( I need a huggggggggggggggggg. I wanna talk to

anyone right now. Nevermind...looking at this chio girl's picture makes

my day. :) Hot bodoh, if i got a girlfriend this chio i sure happy ttm. :D

Which guy wouldn't ? xD Just look at her eyes...and her hair..perfect.

LOL hahah ok Jed, stop it. I guess i'm getting more depressed, trying to

make myself happy. :( Im so pathetic, sigh. Anyone wanna chatttttz ?

And everything came rushing back. ):

2010-12-01T14:16:00.002+08:00

Had breakfast at 7am+ in the morning with aunt and went back to sleep.

Woke up at 12pm+, i'm so bored now. I guess arynna's right, using comp

all the time is like having no life at all. I'm not living my life to the fullest.

I really don't wanna waste my holidays either going to lan or staying at

home doing nothing... It's kind off torturing staying at home, i might get

depression anytime. Someone please come talk to me or visit me......... :(

But you didn't care, you shoved me away.

2010-12-01T04:40:00.005+08:00

It's 1st of December already, time flies. /: In about 1 more month, we're

going back to school again. Well, it's 4:43am now and i can't go to sleep.

Tues(30/11), Watched some movies at home with ernest in the morning.

Ernest left at 3pm+, bored ttm. I went back to sleep at 5pm+ and woke

up at 1am, that explains why i'm not able to go back to sleep. :) Im super

hungry now but there's no food for me to eat. Sad life. So yeah, a month

has passed. I just wish i'll be happy this month, every month, everytime.

I'll be the light to guide you.

2010-11-30T08:16:00.004+08:00

Sorry i didn't update my blog yesterday but i was too tired. I slept

as soon as i reached home. Sunday (28/11), went to Scape's lan w

ernest and played from 11pm+ till 4am+. We had our breakfast at

mac and we chatted because we were killing time while waiting

for the first bus home until Don called me and asked whether we

wanted to go to the lan at paya lebar. So ernest and i took the mrt

to dhouby ghaut and met Don there while we then headed to P.L

together. We reached P.L at about 7am+ and we headed to the

lan. The lan was damn cheap but it doesn't lag and the computer's

graphic was great. We played lan from 7am+ all the way until

7pm+. AT 9am, we accompanied Don to have his breakfast and

continued playing lan while Don had to get to his uncle's house

and come back to meet us again later. Don came back at 3pm+

and bought me a shrooms burger. LOL he said "I don't starve

my brother de." Touched, hahah lol. Ok anyway, Ernest was

sleeping in the lan, lol. Epic. Ernest and I cabbed back to my aunt

house, reached @ about 9pm+ and i went to bed and headed to

dreamland. Don's coming to find me later in the afternoon i

guess, that's what he said. Ernest is still sleeping.....................pig.

The day i thought i'd never get through, i got over it.

2010-11-28T21:12:00.004+08:00

Second post for the day. I just woke up from my nap not long ago. :)

I just wanna tell everyone out there who thinks that no one cares for

them that they're wrong. There'll always be some people that truly

care for you, you just gotta open your eyes. :) Forget about people

who doesn't care for you as much as you care for them. You definitely

don't deserve it. If you cared but people doesn't appreciate it then

that is their loss. So yeah, remember that there'll always be people

that cares for you !

I'm going Scape with Ernest later to play lan, i don't really feel like

going though ._. Nevermind, bye readers ! :) Shall post again soon.

Then something better came along.

2010-11-28T12:20:00.004+08:00

HAHAH this picture is damn cute. LOL im so bored now, FML. :(

I'm so hot too, but imma go bathe soon ! :) Uhm, woke up around

9am+ yesterday. Prepared and stuff and met Arynna, Shaoming,

and Marcus at fairprice. Bought stuffs for the picnic and went to

Juliana's house to cook. Then went to marina barrage for picnic.

We then headed to orchard to meet Yingning there afterwards. :)

Had our dinner at kopitiam and Yingning bought cake for marc

and i. LOL birthday song epic fail, i was sleeping when they were

singing cus i didn't slept for 2 days. What to do. After eating, we

went to watch Harry Potter @ 7:30pm. The show wasn't that

bad. Happend to saw Jervin there too, he said he was sleeping

throughout the movie. Took 106 home after that, woah i was damn

tired. Can even sleep while standing up, pro right. I know. :B

Btw, thanks Yingning, Arynna, Shaoming and Marcus for ytd !!

AND to Don who wished me happy birthday again mins before

my birthday ended !! :D WAH damn honoured. Hahah, :)

And i said a little prayer.

2010-11-27T07:09:00.002+08:00

Hey readers, i've finally turned 14. :) I shall not post anything emo today.

And i won't let any dumbfucks ruin cutexdd96's mood today yo. Suckers.

Hehehe, well i'd like to thank everyone who had gave me birthday wishes.

Special thanks to Yingning and Juliana who also encouraged me. And to

Alex and Don. :) Cutexdd96 is going out later so i'll post again later when

i'm back. ;) For now, try not to miss me so much alright. Heheh -shy- leh.

2010-11-26T15:34:00.001+08:00

The memories I once held closest are the ones I now genuinely wish I

could scrape away at every piece that remained in my mind until

they were completely obliterated. If memories lasts forever, i am

sincerely fucked for eternity. Thanks so much for destroying me.

It hurts so much, you might as well kill me.

2010-11-25T10:30:00.005+08:00

You've changed...you weren't the you which i onced knew. Your

attitude totally changed. Guess all of this was my fault because i

gave you shit attitude. Now, you don't seem to care anymore. I

feel really lost and upset, i don't know what i should do already.

I thought everything was real, well then i thought wrong. All

was just a dream. I just want to find someone who could be there

for me when i need them. And someone who would be patient

towards me. Im like any other human being that wishes to be

cared for... I've been searching for acceptance. Do you know the

pain of knowing someone you thought who'd stand by you no

matter what leaves you ? So much for everything i did for you.

I promised that you got my back and you also promised the

same but i know holding on has no more purpose already. I've

seen through you. Yeah and i totally understand how i could

lose to this girl, really. Have you ever considered how i'd feel?

Guess you never did, you never let anyone close enough too,

guess the closest was Jiawei ? I gave you everything i had, do

you know ? I really thought that we have each other's back

no matter what happens... I cared, did you ? Was it a lesson

to make me understand that we can never rely on anyone

in this world ? I hope karma haunts you down man, that one

day you'll experience the pain i'm going through, it's hell.

Did you forget about us ? About how much fun we had...?...

Am i really that easy to forget ? :( Why do you seem to be

able to move on so easily w/o me while i'm here thinking

about our past ? I need you man, come back please ? :( ....

Or are you gonna hate me & forget me like how everyone

does ? ....

I see sunset in your eyes, you're letting go.

2010-11-24T13:24:00.003+08:00

I told myself to be happy, i was happy for awhile and then i'm back to

sqaure one again. I also don't wanna blog so much anymore. You got

the best of me, it was my fault. It doesn't matter anymore, as long as

you're happy, it's fine with me. 我恨自己，假装不在意，却痛了自己。

And i'm on my way to believing.

2010-11-24T08:22:00.005+08:00

Well today, i don't feel like blogging about how life sucks and how

life always kicks my ass. :) Today, i just want to be happy and be

free from all the unhappiness. I don't want to be paranoid and

keep thinking about those what if(s) and stuff. Just for today, i

want to feel happy and not think too much. :) If anything bad

happens, i'll go with it because things happen for a good reason.

We may not see it at first but we'll surely understand after

some time. I don't know why i'm being so optimistic today leh.

I feel so light now, suddenly. HAHA i feel so cheerful man. Feels

good. LOL anyway, i hope everything turns out fine for me.

And of course, my readers and friends out there too. ;) My bird

day's in 3 more days yo, but i'm not really excited about it like

how i was last time. /: Nevermind, hahah dang i'm so hungry

right now. If some of you haven't noticed it yet, i've changed my

blog song, glee's version. Had nostalgia while listening to that

music. LOL hmmm i'll be having my breakfast soon so yup

i guess i should stop writing here ! See ya, don't miss me too

much alright ?! HAHAH i will be shy you know. ;) Bleagh.

We used to be.

2010-11-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

I hate how i am now, i hate feeling so vulnerable. I'm trying to

pretend like i don't care because you seem like you doesn't

care too. Really, i feel so physically and mentally drained. I

really don't know what i should do already. I really tried my

best to tell you that i am different. That you got my back.

But, i don't know...you seem like you don't give a rat's ass

about it. You just acts as if you don't need anyone, and as if

you're better off alone. I gave you my all, cared so much for

you. Do you know how much it fucking hurts to see that

you doesn't care ? I promised you that you'll always have

my back but do something. I feel as if i'm all alone....

I've realised that you never really let me into your life, you

just lead me to your entrance and make me find the way in

when all the doors are locked. I've tried breaking them but

i can't and i'm tired of trying. When i sit back and look at the

door, i realised i never really knew you because you never

care much to share. I wish i knew you inside out, but you

never let me have the chance to...

What hurts the most was being so close.

2010-11-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

I needed you today, so where did you go ?

High above the chimney tops.

2010-11-13T02:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday 12/11/2010, woke up at 4:30am. Couldn't go back to sleep so

i went to turned on the television. Met alex at Tradehub21 to pass him

a pair of black shoes while he passed to me my laptop. Went back home

while waiting for alex's work to end. Cabbed to boonlay market w alex

and ernest at about 3pm+. Played lan with alex all the way till 11pm++.

Ernest left at 6pm+ and Alex and I had our dinner at around 7pm+

before we continue playing blackshot in the lan. Took 99 home with alex.

I'm kinda tired now so i guess i'll be sleeping soon. (: Goodnight !

Now i'm picking up all the pieces.

2010-11-08T17:03:00.003+08:00

.
.

You open your heart to someone, told them everything. Treated them

as a part of you but they feed you with bullshit. Sometimes, it's best if

we don't open our hearts to anyone at all, so whatever they say or do

wouldn't hurt us. I guess that's why some people build walls around em

to protect themselves from being hurt. I used to think that if i treated

people like how i wanted to be treated, i will. But i was wrong, i guess.

Maybe because this is what the world really is. They just use you to

get what they want. I also don't believe in karma anymore, i did good

things but bad things still happen to me anyway. I'm really very tired

inside out. I am tired of pretending that everything's alright even

though it's not. I'm tired of chasing people, begging them not to leave.

I'm tired of not being able to sleep at night, turning over and over.

I wish i would just disappear somehow or get hit by something real

hard so that i would forget all the bad memories. Well, i don't want

to crap so much. No one listens anyway. G.o.o.d.b.y.e.

You left me stannding in the cold alone.

2010-11-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

Words are somehow like bullets and sometimes, they can kill people.

Today, i've been killed by a bullet. I feel like i don't know you at all....

I feel so stupid. It's like all these while....i really don't know what else

to say already.. You sounded as though im a pain in the ass, and as

though that you were forcing yourself to sms me all this while. But

you win, i won't bother you this time if it's what you want. I'm really

upset. You left a hole in my heart. Enough said, i'll stop writing here.

Like a lightning bold, your heart will glow.

2010-11-07T14:34:00.004+08:00

I've changed my blog song ! :) I love this song so much, it has

so much meaning in it and I like this song the best than any

other songs sang by Katy Perry. Well okay, so i've decided to

upload some pictures from tumblr to share with you guys :D

HAHAH LOL. TRUE. :D Using fire in the water ?

What the hell. LMAO. Oh well ~
.

I love this, so true. :) I couldn't agree more. We should start

being less insane on things and start loving people more !

Cabbed to boon lay with alex on friday @ 2am+ in the morning to a lan

beside boon lay market and played blackshot for 8 hours. Played till Saturday

@ about 11am. Took 99 and went to my house and alex continued

playing blackshot but it was a little laggy though. :X Alex slept at about

3pm so i used the laptop. He woke up at 7pm and i went and took a

bathe before i accompanied him to wait for a cab below my house. I

woke up at about 10am today, i'm so bored at home ! D: Alex, faster

wake up and lend me your laptop. TYVM. :) LOL

The sky's the limit.

2010-11-06T00:49:00.005+08:00

I wish i could do this. Well, today has been a boring day for me. /:

Woke up at 3pm++ and had lunch at home. Ernest left my house

at around 5pm and i continued watching the televison all the way

until 10pm++. I can't sleep now.... I'm going Sentosa with grace,

jh and co tmrw again to play vb. :)

I always stay up at night, wondering why i was here in the first

place. There's so many things i wanna say, so many things that

is troubling me right now. You said you'll be here when if i ever

needed you, but now that i need you, where are you ? Sigh.....

I feel that i'm slowly fading away once again. FML i hate me ttm.

I hate feeling so vulnerable, so helpless, so weak. I don't know

how to get to you, everytime i share with you about how i really

feel deep down inside, you seem so nonchalent and replies w

short answers. I really don't know what're you thinking of. I

I went to the extend of writing my feelings through a book but

it doesn't work. I know you read with your heart, i'm happy

to hear that but don't you have anything to say at all ? D:

There’s nothing lonelier than being angry at

someone who’s indifferent to your anger.

Never gonna let you down.

2010-11-04T23:01:00.009+08:00

Yesterday, met alvin at clementi and took bus 7 to *Scape to play

lan. Yeah, i know it probably sounds insane but hey, it wasn't my

idea. We played from 3pm - 7pm and took bus 7 to clementi bus

interchange to met Alex. Alvin headed home after that and Alex

suggested that we go play lan @ cityvibe. So we went and played

for 1.5 hr, after that, Alex wanted to play lan the whole night so

I was fine with it. We went to one of a lan near boon lay makret.

Played from 11pm++ to 4am++ and headed for breakfast before

going back to play from about 5am to 9am and from 10am+ to

2am+. LOL had fun with alex at the lan. :) We took 99 back

home and Alex missed his stop cus both of us were sleeping and

when we got up, we had already reached clementi bus inter.

Jeremy came to my house at about 4pm++ while Ernest came

at 5pm+. We played badminton, 4v4. Jeremy and my cousin

versus Ernest and I. Well, we lost by a set but who cares ~ Uhm

ernest's in my house now, playing blackshot. He'll be staying

over tonight.

I was looking at my past blog entries during the June holidays and

suddenly, alot of memories came gushing back to my mind. I don't

know what i should say... ....Sometimes, the happiest memories are

the saddest because you don't know if there'll still be more of it,

maybe you have lived to see those happy memories that will

never happen in life again.

BROTHERSFORLIFE.

Fuck the whole universe.

2010-11-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I just I’m just tired of being tired.

Hysteria.

2010-11-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

At some point, you have to realize that some people doesn’t care
and maybe you’re missing out on someone who does.
----
Sometimes I feel extremely disconnected. Like I don’t fit in this
world. I feel like I was born at the wrong time and I just don’t belong.
----
Always remember that anyone who can touch you can hurt or heal
you. And anyone who can reach you can love or leave you.
---
And i think that one of the worst feeling is to be forgotten by someone
you never forget.

Won't let nobody hurt you.

2010-10-31T22:00:00.002+08:00

Boo. Happy Halloween ! :D Was supposed to attend Halloween at Sentosa

yesterday with Alex, Grace, Jinshun and co but the tickets were all sold

out. So we went to Sentosa to play volleyball! We played from about 3pm

until 7pm+. Grace went to have dinner with Jinhao and co at KFC while I

accompanied Alex to eat at Kopitiam. Alex went home after that i went to

met Grace, Yixuan, Gary, Rickmond, Jinhao and Junru. Took mrt all the

way to Bishan and went to KOI. Took bus to Junru's house after that. We

went to Junru's house to ton. Gary didn't followed us as he was tired.

Reached at about 11pm++ and went to Junru's room. Used computer(s),

played PS2 and chatted. Rickmond and Jinhao slept at about 3am++.

Ordered mac and ate with Grace and Yixuan. Continued to blackshot

after that. Yixuan and Grace went to sleep at about 5am while I went to

sleep at 5:30pm. Woke up at 11am, feeling a little giddy with red eyes.

Had brunch with Jinhao, Grace and Rickmond at a market somewhere

AMK. Took 166 with Grace from AMK bus interchange all the way to

Clementi bus interchange, it took us about 1 hour 40min to reach, i almost

went crazy in the bus. LOL despite feeling tired, i still accompanied my

cousin to play badminton until 7pm+. Went home, took a shower and

watched Harry Potter on CH5. I'm going to school tmrw to appeal for

DNT, i don't wanna take arts. Hope that the appeal would be successful.

God bless me. :P

But i need you more than you'll ever know :'(

2010-10-25T15:13:00.003+08:00

I missed how closed we used to be, I hate how far we've grown apart.
I.Miss.Us
---
Sometimes the best memories are sad because you know they will
never happen again.
---

2010-10-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier.

Don't tell me cus it hurts.

2010-10-21T17:46:00.005+08:00

At times you just have to try not to care, no matter how much you do, because
sometimes you mean nothing to the person who means everything to you.
----
Why is it that we are more willing to open our heart again for that one person
who hurts us the most rather than for someone new?
----
You and me, we used to be together, everyday together, always. I really feel
that i'm losing my best friend. I can't believe this could be the end, it looks
as though you're letting go and if it's real then i don't want to know.
----
Skipped school today, don't feel like going to school to give Mdm Nurmaiza
that 500 words essay.

It looks as though you're letting go.

2010-10-21T17:10:00.003+08:00

Benedict won me in bowling. (Happy now, Benedict ?) :)
-Nevermind now...go play your blackshot, go sms your Jiawei. Go hang out
with all your other friends, go do whatever you want. I'm so afraid of you..
Guess you'll never come around, not anytime soon, that's for sure. Why
can't you just open up your eyes and look around. Why can't you be more
fair to me. Forget it, nothing goes into your head anyway. You don't care.
You see, and you forget. But whatever Jiawei tells you, you remember. :)
Go sms Jiawei, shan't disturb you already.. -Jed
Sometimes late at night I think about all the things that have been,
all the things that haven’t been and all the things yet to be. I wonder
if this world will ever make sense to me, if I will ever truly
understand anything… and if there’s really anything to understand
at all.

When nothing feels alright.

2010-10-20T17:44:00.002+08:00

The worst feeling isn't being lonely but being forgotten by someone you
can't forget. As usual, i only slept for 1 hour before i went to school. My
mind was full of questions and i before i knew it, i was crying. I really don't
want to be like this but i just can't help it. I wanna spend more time with
you man. Nevermind...it's no use saying either. Who cares. I try to act like
i don't need you anymore but the fact is i do but i'm just putting up a
strong front. I'm afraid that one day you might stop hanging out with me
or you might forget me... I need you in my life but i'm afraid to open up
because i'm afraid of getting sad. Sometimes, you just don't seem like you
need me... Sigh, guess i won't be able to sleep well today again... I just
wish there is actually someone who would treat me just the way i treat
them and cherishes me. I'm so sad this few days...nevermind no one care
anyway.. I shall stop here for today... - Jed.

Don't wanna hurt anymore.

2010-10-19T22:34:00.004+08:00

All this time i was wasting my time hoping that you would come around. You're always neglecting people whenever you're busy or having fun. Sometimes, i really regretted getting to know you because if i hadn't got to know you well maybe i won't get upset everytime. But i can't rewind time. Often, i have nightmares that you didn't want to hang out with me anymore. And i would wake up in fright, afraid to go back to sleep again. Every single day, the same routine. It is so scary to me. Do you even know how it feels ? Well, you probably don't because you've got so many other friends. But to me, you mean quite the world to me. Why was i given birth...i hate my life. I don't want to feel so upset. I don't want to have nightmares. It is so tiring to have cared so much for a person but it doesn't cares for you too. After all, we all just want to love and be loved. I feel like im living this world alone. I feel like im on the verge of breaking down but no one seems to care. Im so depressed right now. Im so tired, so worn out, torn and battered. I wanna cry. I want to not bother about anything. I wanna suicide. Where were you when i needed you..... -Jed.

This is what dreams are made of.

2010-09-30T19:20:00.002+08:00

I feel like i just need to get out from this bustling life i have (again).

I wanna go to somewhere where it's just totally quiet. So that i can

just relax and forget about everything that is bothering me..sigh ):

Skipped recess and stayed back after school with some classmates

getting lectured by Mdm Nurmaiza and cleaning of classrooms

from 2/5 to 2/2 , 2C and 2D. Alex, Cheewee, Alvin, Ernest and I

went to westmall to bought the ingrdients for spaghetti and came

over to my house to have a 'mini party'. LOL they left at 6pm++.

Exam in 3 more days, ah fuck. I haven't even started revising ! /:

At times, i really wish you could take out more time with me for

our time spent together is getting lesser and lesser as each days

goes by...

I dreamed a dream.

2010-09-29T20:36:00.002+08:00

Played block catching with alex, eugene, ernest and cheewee opp my

house after school. Played until 4pm+ and they came to my house.

Slacked till' 6pm++ and they left. Accompanied them to the bustop.

I just wish time would slow down. It's just going too fast and i am

afraid of tomorrow(s). I'm so scared, i don't even know how to.....

express myself in words. Dude, i feel that something between us

is missing. Or maybe it was just today ? Sigh, i wish that we can

control time. I wanna go out with you again, like the other time we

went to Orchard to get your phone fixed. Just the both of us, it

was a crazy and fun night ! ( Memories ftw. )

Yesterday once more.

2010-09-28T20:36:00.003+08:00

Served detention for 1 hour with alex today after school. Went to

IMM with alex, cheewee and ernest. Had our lunch at mc 'donald

and played catching again. It was fun...we played until 5pm+ and

went to Jurong Library to 'study'. Ernest didn't join us btw as he

gotta be home by 6pm. Slacked at the library with alex and cw

until 6pm+ and took 333 to alex's house bustop (to accompany

him) and took 187 with cheewee.

I'm afraid of losing everyone. I wished i could stop time. I hate

reminiscing because it makes me miss all those times that we

cannot rewind. It's like take today for example, i really enjoyed

every bit of today at IMM but what's left is memories. I wish i

could go back to the time during the June holidays. I was very

happy during that period too. I'm not saying that im not happy

right now but i just miss everything in the past. And because

of that, it teached me to cherish everything. Time is priceless.

So enjoy it before it's over. (Alex, don't fail. Don't go back m's.)

Everything i do i give my heart and soul.

2010-09-27T20:12:00.008+08:00

School was fine today, got back my english compo test and scored

25/30. Went to IMM with jeremy and met alex there @ 3pm++.

Had our lunch at Kopitiam and played catching there, was really

fun but tiring too. LOL then headed to LJS for dinner and left at

6pm. Cabbed w Alex and Jeremy after that. Jeremy's currently

at my house...resting. Next week's the start of exam, damn it lah.

Kinda vandalised my history notes cus i was angry at that time.

Sometimes i feel used by this particular friend but i just don't

know why. Jeremy has advised me never to do so much for a

person because for some people, after a long period of time....

they will take you for granted. But i believe that some people,

will treat you like the way you have treated them. But, i have

a problem ; which category does my friend falls into ? The

actions he do sometimes falls on the first category but some

times, it's on the second category so im really confused. I feel

that he doesn't trust me sometimes and i wished he could

and also to treat me fairly. Like how i've treated him. He is

an awesome friend to me and i really trust him. Hey friend,

you've gotta learn to trust me and stop being self-centered.

I always give you the best. But do you even try to give it to

me too ? Man, i stole money for you, shared money with

you and even spent so much on your birthday presents...

Does it mean anything at all to you ? What i want to say is

that i'd do anything for/with you but the question that im

gonna ask is...will you do anything for/with me too ? /:

Dude, as i've said, you gotta learn to trust me ! And treat

me like how you want to be treated. I always give you the

best. I wait for you sometimes and don't complain but

how about you ? I seriously don't get why you're like this.

I'm a human too, i've got feelings just like everyone else.

And btw, when you said "Not everyone else is as good as

you." It really hit me straight in the heart okay. When you

said that, i was on the verge of tears. It's like all those

times we spent together is just nothing to you. And it's

like i could feel myself breaking into pieces. I felt that it was

the end of the world for me, believe it or not. See how much

you mean to me now ? I wished you could see yourself

through my eyes then you'd know. I'll always be there

for you and i hope you do the same too but if you're not

interested then please tell me alright.....sigh. Lastly.... ,

I hope that this friendship is real and that you're not just

using me. We had fun times together and i want it to last.

Think about what i've said, seriously.

(maybe im being paranoid but still, i need your assurance)

ACTION.SPEAKS.LOUDER.THAN.WORDS.

so show me that you'll be there when i need you.

It's like a dream, no end and no beginning.

2010-09-26T20:36:00.004+08:00

Friday 24/09/10, went to bukit timah lan with alex, jeremy, eugene,

cheewee and ernest. Went to westmall's arcade until 6pm++ with

alex and ernest. Then we met alvin at lot 1 and went to the arcade

at 7pm+ if im not mistaken. Played all the way till 12 midnight. (Y)

Then we stayed-over at alvin's house. We slept at 3am+ heh. :-)

Saturday 25/09/10, woke up at around 12pm+ and went to have

our lunch at a coffee shop nearby with alex, alvin, ernest, alvin's

mom, grandma and maid. Then went back to alvin's house and we

played hide-n-seek. Went to a basketball court somewhere near

alvin's house and played basketball, volleyball and soccer. Ernest

left after that while alex, alvin and i went back to alvin's house.

Initially, alex wanted to go back alvin's house just to take a bath

and leave but then he felt like staying over for another day so i

accompanied him. LOL we studied till 12am+ and went to sleep.

Sunday 26/09/10, woke up at 11am+ and headed to westmall w

alex, alvin and alvin's mom. Had lunch at Mayim, the food there

was simply divine. Lol, enjoyed the food there man. Went home

and bathe then met alex, grace and peiqi at yuhua mac. Was

supposed to study but i guess they got distracted by the J-14

magazine. Left the place at 5pm w alex and met benedict at

the Jurong Polyclinic bustop. Played lan for 2.5 hours and went

home.

Sigh, i could really use a wish right now. If i was granted 1 wish...

i wish that everyone (including myself) could be happy everyday.

But maybe it's impossible. Well what i really want is that..(im not

gonna tell but if you want to know ask me. I might tell you.)

"Not everyone is as good as you." (I will never forget this sentence

because it hurt my feelings. ) I wished you could treat me more

like a real brother man.

and all you do was let me down.

2010-09-22T22:57:00.003+08:00

Slacked with eugene around westmall from 2pm until 4.30pm then

went home. Cheewee came over to my house at about 6pm and we

left at 7pm. I took 189 to meet alex at clementi bus interchange &

headed to yuhua mac. Met jeremy there and had our dinner, then

we went to the playground behind mac. Met Jiali, Jiawei and her

younger brother. Played with fires and stuff then kena scolded by

policeman. So we decided to go to this open area beside Jiali's house

to continue playing w fire. Went home, fucked up..pissed. Ccb

I don't even know how i should feel right now. You said you'd

accompany me to the bustop but in the end you crossed the

damn road with Jiawei and Jeremy. And when i was talking

to you halfway you just turned your back on me & didn't look back

when i was talking to you. I was angry and sad so i just walked

back to the bustop. You could've at least crossed back to my

side and say sorry or accompanied me to the bustop in front

right ? What. Very late hor, no time to entertain me. Walking

same direction right ? Give what lanjiao excuse sial, knn want

walk with Jiawei then say lah. Jiaowei so much. My fault la.

Only know how to pangseh people, knn. Fooling me iszit ? What

brother sia. Brother like this ah. Sacrifice few mintues will

die like that. No, you will die. Cuz you'd rather walk w Jiawei.

I'm nothing to you afterall mah, fuck everyone. Fucktard.

What the fuck is this you tell me. Nvm, im too tired alr.

quiker than the rays of light

2010-09-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

LOL school was fine today, as usual. Nothing much to write bout' it.

Went to westmall koufu for lunch with alex, cheewee and eugene at

2pm. Was laughing among ourselves cus of some jokes. Happened

to saw stacey, yanjun and kaingee over there too by chance. Then

we decided to study together at the library. Studied till 4pm and

headed to shop-n-save to buy the ingredients for home econs. /:

Well, alex and i haven't really decided on what to cook yet but most

probably it'll be sushi and sphagetti that we're gonna prepare. :)

Alex and cheewee came over my house to blackshot after that !

Cheewee left at 6pm+ while alex stayed till about 9pm before we

went to shop-n-save to buy the seaweed (?) for the sushi. Then

something scary happened, we saw this looney middle aged guy

hanging around westmall entrance and he kept looking at alex. I

looked at him and continued walking and he was actually following

us. We were like wtf that's freaking me out. So we ran all the way

to a bustop that was near my house. Waited for alex's bus to

arrive before i left. Going over to alex's house tml to try prepare

the sushi and see how it goes. :) Alright, nights to all readers ! :D

i'll take you there.

2010-09-19T19:57:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 10am today. Met alex and benedict at the lan near alex's

house. Played till bout' 4pm and had lunch at a coffee shop near by.

Continued playing lan after that until 6pm+ and took bus 99 home.

I've always wondered who created this universe and how that person

suddenly popped out from no where. Lol i guess i'll never have it

figured out. Life's a mystery....somehow i guess. Whatever, bye ! :)

2010-09-19T11:56:00.001+08:00

Changed my blog song, hope you guys likes it ! :D
Posts will be longer after EOYs but goodbye for now.

walk beside me and be my friend.

2010-09-15T17:08:00.003+08:00

DUDE,
SORRY I GET MAD AT YOU EVERYTIME.
I just feel that you're too precious to me...
Well i know it sounds kinda gay but it's from
the bottom of my heart. We had fun times
and i want that to last. I hope you'll under-
stand. Sometimes i get upset because it
seems that you've left me behind, but i think
it's just me being paranoid as usual. I'll
change my temper. You're a big part of my
life. I know, that sometimes you just hate
me (?) I never hated you since the time we
were back to being friends. But if you don't
like me, you can just tell me. Seriously. :)
Have you read the booklet i gave you ? 0_0
Alright that's all i have to say.

lover of my soul.

2010-09-14T19:01:00.003+08:00

I love this picture alot, it gives me a warm and cosy feeling. Feel very

comfortable, hahah. :D Well lessons were fine today, today's lifeskill

lesson was awesome. It inspired me alot, seriously. Alex and i ate in

the canteen while waiting for eugene to be dismissed. Eugene came

at 2pm and we took 333 to jurong library. We didn't really studied,

we were kinda more like slacking. Hahah, left at 4pm+ and took bus

home. I'm so tired today so im gonna sleep by 9pm ! Gonna bathe

soon, im hot and sticky right now... :X Argh 2 weeks++ to EOYs. D:

68)You get experience when you don't get what you want. I agree w/

this quote. I've learned something about life today and i am pretty

satisfied with myself. :)

Use things, love people and not love things, use people. ^__^

its time i let you go.

2010-09-12T20:58:00.007+08:00

Had a fun time with alex yesterday, watched cats and dogs with alex

and benedict at westmall @ 1.40pm. Show ended at 3pm++ and went

to Koufu for lunch. Took 106 to orchard with alex, went to wisma to

get alex's phone fixed then went to cineleisure arcade till 7pm+ and

to Scape's arcade. Left at 9pm++ and went to lot 1. Played arcade and

left at 12midnight. Headed to macdoanld for supper, went to lan @

cck after that till 4am++. Cabbed to my house and let alex use my

lappy to play blackshot. I slept at 7am in the morning while he slept

at 10am in the morning. Woke up at around 4pm and continued to

blackshot till 8pm+ and accompanied alex to clementi bus inter. Well

tmrw's the start of a new term and EOY is around the corner so to

everyone out there, all the best in your studies and EOY ! Jiayou. :D

I have been going out with alex for the whole of this 1 week hols. Hm

must have fun mah, after that needa mug hard for exams alr. Hehe.

This 1 week hols was very enjoyable to me, i had alot of fun w alex

and some others. I'm tired, shall go and sleep now ! Btw, i won't be

able to blog that often anymore cus of EOY. Alright, nights. :DDDD

i'd like to believe that planet earth turns slowly.

2010-09-10T23:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, met alex and eugene at city vibe @ around 2pm++. Lan for

1.5 hours. Alex came to my house after that, played blackshot w him

for a little while and he played dotA with my cousin. Then blackshot w

alex until 4am+ in the morning, he fell asleep at 4am++, played bs for

a little while more before i went to sleep too. We woke up at around 11

in the morning. Had breakfast that my aunt had prepared and bs till

about 7pm+. Went to cityvibe lan w alex for 1.5hours and had our

dinner at LJS after that. Otw to clementi bus interchange, played w

alex. LOL threw ice at each other and i had a fun time trying to dodge.

Hahah, alex's going malaysia tmrw. Aiyo, can't go out w him already.

Sadded, lol. Alright, i shall go get some sleep now. Very very tired ! D:

Once bitten twice shy.

2010-09-09T01:18:00.003+08:00

I’m afraid to ever get close to anyone because I have a fear

that one day we’ll fight and they’ll tell everyone my secrets,

or use them against me. I hate being vulnerable, so I always

put on a tough exterior but deep down I just want to know

that there’s someone there for me that’ll listen to what I say

in confidence and keep it just between us, but I know there’s

no one like that in my life now, and I don’t think I’ll be able

to find that person in the future. These trust insecurities

just get in the way and prevent me from ever really trying.

Is there a true friend at all ?

Tell me.

This feeling's taking control of me.

2010-09-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Sorry there aren't any pictures today, there's some problems with

my internet connection i think. Woke up around 11am today then

met alex and took 157 to bukit timah irc, reached around 2.40pm

and played pool with alex, minjie and ernest. Ks and mingui were

there too, playing at another table with ks's friends. Left the place

at around 4pm++ and had our lunch at mac donald, then 945 to

lot 1 to catch Grown Ups. Yeah....2nd time watching it for alex &

I, movie ended at about 9pm. Went to the arcade awhile and left.

Took 188 with alex, reached home at 11pm+, had supper and

took a bath. Alex might be coming over tmrw for our home econ

project. Damn it i hate projects lol but hope i'll have fun cooking

with him. Heheh, i wanna have some chocolate chip cookiessssss.

2010-09-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

Well good morning readers ! It's a brand new day today, hope everything

turns out good for me and all of you guys as well ok ? :-) Heh, met bro at

9pm at the lan near his house. Played till 11pm+ and had bought supper

from 7-11. Ate and slacked till 12mn and bused home. Watching movie w

bro, eugene and jianjie later on at westmall. Hope it'd be fun ! Alright, i

should get some sleep now. And those of you who are stalking my blog nw

too. Lollllll joking ! Btw before i end this post, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY

JERELYN TAY ! HEHE. Okay that's all, good night everybody, yawns.

the rest is still unwritten

2010-09-06T16:19:00.003+08:00

I hate it when give me 1 word replies. LOL and sometimes it pisses me

when people just send me a 'K.' And try to give me smiley faces when

any of you is texting me please ! Or i will think that you are giving me

an attitde or something. Thanks ! :D Well okay, woke up around 10am

today. Im going mad soon, staying at home the whole day. Might be

going lan with alex, cheewee and benedict later. But not comfirmed yet.

don't come to me only when no one else is free. well i mean nth

to you i guess. afterall im just an atm to you. everyone wants to feel

appreciated sometimes. a little care and concern would be nice y'know

at least jianjie doesn't mind if im just going out with him alone. its still fun

to him. unlike you...going out with more people doesn't mean that it'd

be more fun. sometimes just the both of us going out can be equally

fun too. unless you're trying to sy that im a very boring person. well then,

im sorry for being a boring person to you.what do you want me to say.

i feel being used. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

wanna spend the entire lifetime with you

2010-09-05T13:43:00.004+08:00

Watched Haunted Changi with alex and koksiang @ 5.40pm yesterday.

The show was kinda boring but some parts were scary. Alex came to my

house after that. Left home at about 11pm+ and cabbed over to ks's

house and then to bukit timah beauty world. Played pool all the way till

5am+. LOL but we played lan for an hour from 12am to 1am. Had our

breakfast at mac donald and we took cab to my house. We all slept till

about 12pm+ and accompanied alex and koksiang to the bus interchange

and to wait for ks's cab. I'm bored now, sigh and im broke...boo hoo ~

Why do i feel so empty whenever you're gone. I don't even know what

you did to me that make me so....obsessed with you. I miss you man.

You were **** just awhile ago but now i miss you alr. Why the fuck is

this happening to me. D: feel so empty without you, come out now :(

take it to the dance floor

2010-09-03T19:02:00.002+08:00

Last day of school for this term, woots. Went to bukit timah lan

w alex, eugene and jonathan chang today. Played bs for about
2.5 hours. Benedict came and played bs with us for 1 hour cus

he came late. Went to a place that sells chicken rice to eat, and

went home. Meeting alex and benedict later to watch The Hole

(3D) @ 9.45pm so i'll be reaching westmall at around 8.30pm.

Alright shall update when i get back. HEHE dont miss me k ! :)

lets run this town.

2010-09-02T20:57:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAH LOL sorry to all Taylor Lautner fans out there but this is

really funny ! :D Woke up at 4am today, bathed and cabbed to yuhua

macdonald at around 5.30am and reached by 5:45am. Met alex there

and had breakfast together. Left at 6.30am and went to school to do

some last minute revision for the math test. The test was kinda easy.

Ms Loh said i passed ! Hehe cus i saw her @ westmall today so i asked

her. Alex passed too, grats bro. Went to bukit timah lan after school w

alex, cheewee, ernest, jeremy, wengmeng and shaolun. Played bs for

2.5 hours, left at about 5pm and went to mac for lunch. Took 157 with

alex and jeremy, alighted near westmall with jeremy and that was

where i saw Ms Loh. Took 189 with jeremy to clementi to have a hair

cut. Ok my hair cut was totally screwed. Thanks to some asshole, hah.

Movie tmrw with alex and some others, that's all bye peoples. (-:

one move can bring people together.

2010-08-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

School ended at 10.30am, \m/. Went back home and charged my phone

and left for nanhuapri at 12.30pm. Saw alot of ex-nanhuaians there too.

6A'O8 FTW. HEHE. Met Marcus.G, Weaven, Yuanlong, Arynna, Bryan,

Keith, Baoxin, Qianning, Esther etc. Walked around shool, had fun ! :-)

Left nanhuapri at 3pm and cabbed to bukit timah lan. Met alex, eugene,

cheewee and a friend of cheewee's, played bs for about 2 hours and had

lunch with alex and cheewee at mac donald. Took bus 157 with alex and

alighted at westmall, watched Grown Ups @ 7:10pm. The show was

hilarious i swear. Movie ended at about 9pm and waited for Fadhli, heh

we watched Step Up 3 @ 9:10pm. Cool or not, hahah tsk. :P Step Up

3 was awesome man. Movie ended at about 11pm. Fadhli left after that

(he took 187 from the opp bustop from where alex and i were) and i

waited for alex's bus. I was forced to cab home after that because there

were no more buses left for me to take. Spend $5.20 on cab fare, tsk.

I'm not going out tmrw, staying at home to study for maths test this

thursday. Oh which reminds me, i gotta get a calculator by tmrwwww.

Btw alex, thanks for accompanying me to watch the 2 movies. I hope i

didn't get you in trouble :$ HEH. I know you didn't right ? I couldn't

feel the pain. (inside joke) Alright im starving, waiting for my fish fillet
bye readers. Enjoy your holidays tmrw yeah. I wanna learn hiphop

and breakdance and fusion dance and b boying. Boohoo learning on

nov hols i guess, anyone interested too ?! Please tell me k thanks :D

but i want you so badly.

2010-08-30T14:48:00.003+08:00

I went to Alex's house @ 11pm+ yesterday night. Took 99 and met him

at jurong polyclinc bustop. Went to 7-11 and bought snacks and headed

to Alex's house. Stayed over at his house . :D We watched tv and slept

at about 3am+ and woke up at 5am. Prepared and went to yuhua mac for

breakfast. Walked to school together after that. Alex and I slept during

science lesson because we only slept for 2 fucking short hours ! Sorry i

had to swear, hehe pardon me. Uh went home straight after school, im

tired now and so i shall get some sleep now.

It's like i want you so badly but it just seems that it's impossible, i wish

you were mine. But im still holding on to the hope that maybe just one

day we two could be together. I don't know what you'd do if you ever

found out that its you. You mean so much to me. I cant stop thinking

about you man, sometimes i wished that you never appeared in my life

so that i wont be jealous or afraid of losing you. Maybe it's hard for you

to accept it but it doesnt hurt if you give me a chance and see how it

works right...? Please give me a chance. DAMN WHAT'S WITH ME ?!

Argh D: i cant help myself from thinking about you, ive never felt this

way before. Is this love ? I dont know, im confused. Kill me. :(

LOVE IS: girl+guy=love, girl+girl=love guy+guy=love(by unknown.)

let's run away and don't ever look back

2010-08-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO READERS ! (if there's any, hah lol) Alex woke up at about 12pm

today cus i disturbed him. I purposely make those fart noises so that he

could stop sleeping. Well, we didn't go to lan today with benedict and co.

Like i've said, i'm broke so yeah, i can't be a spendthrift anymore. Was

at home with alex the whole day today. Took 99 with alex and i alighted

near IMM cus i was meeting my cousin and aunts there. Alex went home

(if you're wondering whether he's still with me or not). Walked around

IMM alone while waiting for cousin and aunts to arrive. Bought some

stuffs and left IMM to meet Alex for dinner @ boon lay market. We took

99 back home after dinner. I reached home at 10pm and i bathed for

30 minutes, shiok bodoh. Although i didn't really do anything today but

spending a day with a friend (or brother) to me, is a perfect day. Hehe

well alright peoples i'm awfully beat now so i better go catch some sleep.

Nights everyone and hope you guys will have a great week ahead ! :-)

2010-08-29T11:13:00.003+08:00

Yeah i know i didn't posted since friday. Hm i shall start with friday night

first. Met alex and benedict at 8pm+ at jurong polyclinic and went to the

lan behind the polyclinic. Played 3 hours of blackshot and went to 7-11 to

buy instant noodles. We ate under a void deck and took 99 to my house.

Alex and benedict stayed over my house. Saturday, we woke up around

8 in the morning and had our breakfast at the coffee shop opposite my

house. Alex and I accompanied benedict to the bustop to wait for benedict's

bus. Went back home after that and alex used my laptop to play b.s.

Called Jeremy to come over my house and he reached by 3pm+. Alex and

Jeremy was playing dotA together so i went to sleep as i was tired and

bored. Then we went to aloha lan @ 12midnight. Played from 12.30am

all the way till' 3am. Reached home at 3am++, Jeremy left my house at

4am in the morning. LOL well alex's still here, sleeping. Meeting ben and

co for lan later @ 12.30pm. Alright that's all i'll update later ( or tmrw!)

P/S:

I'M BROKE RIGHT NOW !

I FEEL SO POOR. I WANT

TO WORK D:

even more in love than we were before.

2010-08-27T19:09:00.004+08:00

School was alright today, i scored 26/50 for my history paper. So

upset with myself, i only got a boderline pass man. Buck up Jed !

Went bukit timah i.r.c to play pool with ks, kenneth and eugene.

Played for 3 hours and had our lunch at mac. I can't believe i ate

at macdonalds 3 times in a week. Unhealthy ._. Took bus and

alighted near westmall and went to westmall alone to check out

the school shoes. Headed to bus interchange and took 1o6 home.

Just had my shower, meeting benedict and alex at the lan near

alex's house. Gonna play till very late cus benedict's staying over

my house. Not sure about alex though, well alright that's all ciao.

♥ but me and you were meant to last forever

be my cinderella.

2010-08-26T19:44:00.002+08:00

Headed to lan with brother, cheewee, ernest and eugene after

school. :) Bukit Timah lan to be exact hehe. Lan for 2.5 hours,

blackshoted as usual. Left at 4pm++ and headed to mcdonald

for lunch. Was left with brother, cheewee and i cus ernest and

eugene had to go. Chatted until bout' 7pm and cabbed home w

brother. Cab fare was 18 bucks, T_T brother you very ex ley.

I think im going out with brother to get out school shoes alr,

finally (?) Or maybe out with benedict and co for movie .__.

2010-08-25T18:36:00.002+08:00

Had history test today, hope i'll pass ! Headed to bukit timah with

alex, cheewee and ernest after school. Played pool and played lan

for 1 hour. Blackshoted, as usual. :-) Had our lunch at macdonald

and took 157. Alighted at the bustop near alex's house & took 99

from there to clementi. I can't wait for september holidays man !

If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. But it doesn't hurt if you try.

I hate myself for caring too much.

2010-08-24T17:54:00.005+08:00

I build walls around my heart because i'm afraid to care too much,

for fear that the other person does not care as much or not at all.

I don't know what to say about today, it was really screwed. I feel so fucked

up. Sigh, okay i'm sorry everything was my fault. No, i'm not being sacarstic.

I hate myself for caring too much, screw myself. I hate myself for being so

sensetive to your criticism, for that i'm sorry too. You probably didn't mean

it. Sorry i left you in the toilet alone and i went to the P.E area myself. I am

sorry for the way i am. I am sorry for everything. Nah, i guess you won't

care lah. I'm just wasting your precious time, sorry. If you wanna criticise

me, it's okay. Do whatever you want dude, i'm too tired to care already...........

I know, you've got other friends too. You don't need me. Hope you're happy.

It doesn't matter if you're gonna ignore me, i can't be bothered anymore.

I'm tired of things that's happening around me lately. I was never in your

heart, was i ? Why's my life so screwed up, fuck it man. Knnbccb, i hate myself.

BOOM.

2010-08-23T18:23:00.003+08:00

I used to think that when I got older, the world would make

so much more sense. But you know what? The older I get,

the more confusing it is to me. -FML

School was fine today, nothing much interesting to mention about.

Went to boon lay lan with alex, benedict and eugene. Played for 2

hours; blackshot. Hehez, had our lunch at the kopitiam before we

headed home. Took 99 home with alex and benedict, benedict was

the first one who alighted, followed by alex. I was the last one. D:

YES i know that i was supposed to go study today but something

cropped up. Studying tmrw instead, well i gtg now. Have to revise

you know ?! I detest studying actually, but i've got no choice.. /':

So will you fly with me ?

2010-08-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

HI ALEX. HOPE YOU LIKE THE CARD + SMALL BOOKLET I GAVE YOU.

Woke up at 10am+ today, blackshot and watched Nanny McPhee & The Big

Bang on my laptop. That show is fugging awesome and it has a moral values

that you can learn from. Met benedict @ 3pm++ at clementi bus inter and

took 99 to somewhere near alex's house to meet alex. Had our lunch at this

coffee shop near alex's house. Played lan for 2.5 hours and went yuhua mac

for dinner. Slacked at playground for awhile before heading home. Studying
@ jurong library tmrw with Benedict, Jiali.C and Stcaey tmrw. BYEEEEE.

Dreamer.

2010-08-21T22:31:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 7am today, alex came over my house at 8am and played

blackshot until 11am. Bathed and cabbed down to Lot 1 with Alex to

meet minjie, naveen, ks and mingui. Played arcade & had our lunch.

Took 66 to bukit timah and headed to beauty world . Naveen and i

played lan while the rest went to play pool. Benedict came at around

3pm+. The 3 of us played blackshot together. Play halfway got this

person say want play with us then anyhow kp us. Wtf step one beng

then alex go scold him siol cus just nice alex came and check how

we're doing. Power la alex, hahah. Played lan till 6pm++ and cab to

clementi mrt with alex, benedict and naveen. Met yingning and bus

to westmall. Had my dinner at KFC and walked around for a while.

HOME SWEET HOME @ 10PM. IM SO TIRED NOW. OH BTWWW

-> HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY LYDIA ZHENG. HEHEHEHEHEHE :D

Remember me tonight when you're asleep.

2010-08-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

After school, went out with alex, jeremy and eugene.

Laser quest > IMM > LOT1 > HOME SWEET HOME.

Not gonna elaborate much about my day today, lazy.

Alex coming over my house tmrw morning, before

heading out to ks house to meet the rest for ks party.

I bleed myself dry for you.

2010-08-19T22:16:00.004+08:00

We shouldn’t let people who aren’t worth it get to us.

Focus on people who love and accept us for who we are,

and shower them with the love and concern that they

deserve.

Can't deal with this no more.

2010-08-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

I like the scenery of this picture ! I wish i was there, enjoying the

scenery. Headed to the kopitiam near yanjun's house with alex ,

jiawei, yanjun and eugene after school. Had our lunch there while

waiting for Benedict, Yixin and Yingkai to reach. Played vb until

6pm and took 187 with Alex and Jiawei. Alighted somewhere

near westmall and took 189 home. Bathed and had dinner, i am

gonna sleep by 9:45pm today because im very tired these few

days. Maths test is 2 days away and i have not revised. WTF ._.

FUCK MY LIFE.

2010-08-17T21:55:00.004+08:00

Some people just doesn't appreciate you no matter how many

times you've been there for them or no matter how good you

have you treat them. Even though you've treated them like a

true friend, they just treats you like dust. As if i am nothing

to them. It's like "I cherished you alot, but why do you treat

me like that ? I did everything for you, and you screwed me

over. All i want is a friend who cares and cherishes me as

much as i care and cherishes them.". When they find someone

else, and they just forgets about you. It just sucks. And

when they've got no one again they come and find you. I

always wonder whether you come to me because you need

me or you just need someone. But whatever it is, it doesn't

matter to me anymore. ( WHO AM I LYING TO. IT

MATTERS ) If you're feeling guilty....nvm i doubt you will.

OR WILL YOU ?

Follow your dreams and aspirations.

2010-08-16T22:03:00.003+08:00

Had lunch with alex, koksiang and mingjie after school at yuhua

mac. Bus rounding after that and went for YOG to watch the

gymnastics game but alex didn't came cus he wasn't in the list.

The gymnasts were awesome man, i used to thought that it's

boring but after today i think that gymnastic is really cool. I

wish there was track and field in our school ! I'll surely join D:

I miss track and field. LOL sigh if only......................................

Reached school at 9pm+ and walked with Jiawei to mini mart

and went our own ways.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO ALEX :D

2010-08-16T00:00:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO ALEX EWE :D

LOOK AT THE TIME OF POST ! BLEHHHH.

MAY EVERYTHING YOU DO BE SUCCESSFULL TILL

THE LAST DAY OF YOUR LIFE AND MAY ALL YOUR

WISHES COME TRUE. I WISH YOU A LONGGGGGG

AND JOYFUL LIFE ! :) IT'S MY PLEASURE GETTING

TO KNOW YOU. AND IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN FUN

GOING OUT WITH YOU. I ENJOY SPENDING MY TIME

WITH YOU. I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU DUDE.

I REMEMBRED I HATED YOU LAST TIME BUT IT'S

COOL HOW WE GOT SO CLOSE HUH ? I NEVER THOUGHT

I'D EVER TREAT YOU AS MY BROTHER. I NEVER

THOUGHT YOU'D BE A BIG PART OF MY LIFE.

BE HONOURED DUDE ! :D SORRY I CAN'T ACCOMPANY

YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU

ASAP ALRIGHT. PROMISE ! ;)

BROTHERS FTW YO. HEHE \ m /

If it's you and me right now that'd be alright.

2010-08-15T19:51:00.003+08:00

Stayed at home until 3.30pm today. Met alex and benedict

at aloha. Lan @ aloha for 2 hours and we went to have our

dinner at a coffee shop near clementi mrt station. Initially,

alex wanted to come to my house but benedict didn't want

to so they went home after eating. Oh well. Going for the

YOG thingy tmrw, watching gymnastics. Staying up till mid

night before i go to sleep. Someone should be honoured.

Most probably gonna play volleyball with Benedict, Jiawei

and Yanjun this coming wednesday. Finally ! LOL :PPPP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAWEI ! :D

2010-08-15T00:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO JIAWEI ! :D

HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR DAY TODAY WITH YOUR LOVED ONES.

MAY YOUR BIRTHDAY BE THE BEGINNING OF ANOTHER GREAT

JOURNEY ! I SINCERELY WISH YOU SUCCESS IN EVERYTHING YOU

DO, HAPPINESS, HEALTH AND JOYFUL ADVENTURES. HEHE :B

I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. I PROMISE :}

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. ♥